tennis_no_ko: (tennis!)
So I dropped off the social radar for a while. I think I started getting a bit more cautious about what I post and what I don't. Anything on my public accounts have become quite neutral and lacking as little personal information as possible. Not that I said much to them before, but there's even less now.

But honestly, there's been so little in my life, that I've had nothing to say. I've not been very busy. I still exercise, go out and do something every now and then. But I spend most of my time in that hospital with Min-chan or on the Rikkai high school courts. Their footwork is dreadful, it's amazing they even qualified for Districts.

I made a decision, though. After July, I'm going back to tennis. Minoru's pretty much guaranteed to be in hospital full-time now and she ordered me to return, because she's fed up of seeing me everyday. So that's something to train for, I suppose.

tennis_no_ko: (default)
Happy Birthday, Bunta! It's been great knowing you so far; thank you for being such a good friend to me. I shall see you at your party today, with something nice, hopefully. Have a great day :)

In other words, I told Minoru about what went happened between myself and my father...I was expecting disapproval, but she asked why I hadn't hit him more. Good to know it's a family thing, and not just me. She keeps pestering me to bring her study books so she can finish reading up on engineering. I don't know whether to do it or not. It's not as strenuous as doing something physical is, but I have a feeling that she'll sleep less when she has her studying materials around her. Honestly, you'd think she enjoyed studying >>;

tennis_no_ko: (despair)
So...Min-min relapsed a week back. She hasn't gotten any of her limbs back into use, yet. I've been delaying it as much as possible for her sake...but she's gone into full-time hospital care now. She says that I could return back to the circuit now that I don't have to look after her at home, but I couldn't do that to her. She hasn't got many of her old friends around her. And having me visit only every two weeks or so? With sparse phonecalls? I couldn't do that to her.

I only remained sane because my team were always visiting. Even one or two days with next to no human contact except doctors? It's difficult. I can't just leave her, not for these first couple of months, anyway. With any luck, she'll get well enough to be released back into home-care soon.

I'm just tired on so many fronts.


Mar. 9th, 2014 11:27 am
tennis_no_ko: (lethargic)
Mother's finally left. She and Min-Min went down to Kanagawa for two weeks, leaving me free for a while. I left strict instructions with Mother and Min-Min so they should be okay together....I hope. But Minoru was pretty insistent about leaving for a couple of days.

Alas, the tournaments don't align with me, so I can't just fly over to Indian Wells and play. Or even to Miami, because it starts March 26 and ends after Min-Min returns home. This is driving me insane. So I think I might just go play pick-up tennis back at Rikkai High School. Coach for a couple of days or something. It'll be fun to be back in that environment again, And they'll be gearing up for Districts, so I can help out a little.

I'm in some deep shit. Why do crazy stalker fans exist? How did she manage to get that picture of Kura and I kissing, anyway? And my address too! If she releases those, I'll never have a moment of peace again. I've already admitted I'm openly gay and dating someone, but if they find out who....

But I can't just stop dating Kura and start dating her. Life doesn't work like that. I'm still gay and I'm still head over heels for him. And I can't tell my bodyguard or my agent either, because they'll take serious action and she'll release the picture and my address anyway. Keeping in contact with her to try and negotiate is driving me up the bend. Thank god Minoru wanted to leave with Mother. I can stress out by myself. I just want some privacy. Is that too much to ask?

And here I am, talking to myself to sort this out. Wonderful....I really am going insane.

[ooc: Strikes not deleted]
tennis_no_ko: (not amused)
Thank you for your wellwishes! My presents from fans has filled my garden and house! It's rather humbling and overwhelming to behold. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. Minoru is appreciating the fact that she can eat all of my chocolate and I can't, so the fans made her happy too >>;

I got another huge surprise, this morning, however. My mother showed up on the doorstep of my house after nearly...four years of not really seeing her in person. To say I was surprised, would be something of an understatement. She looked okay, but as messy and unorganized as ever. I was sort of curious, as to why she'd remembered my birthday this year, but turns out she was only just replying to my message about Minoru's illness. Again, this mixed feeling between laughing and crying, considering I sent that message two and a half months ago. Why does she do this to me?

And she gets talkative when she's drunk, apparently. She started talking about why she had gotten so distant all of a sudden, when I was a kid. An explanation I would have liked a few years ago, frankly. And, it was perhaps a huge shock to discover that my father had been something of a womanizer and had been cheating on her behind her back with several women. In fact, he'd actually managed to have a kid with one of them, when I was two years old. Guess who's winning best parenting award? :D That's right, not this guy.

But I grew less impressed with her, if that's even possible, because when one of your partners is a shitty parent, you're not supposed to mimic his actions. You're supposed to pick up his slack or stay the same, not neglect the kids even more. I swear, if I ever have kids, the only way I'll drive them insane is over too much affection and trying to train them to take over the world.

Anyway, she knew the identity of our half-brother and figured out when I was seven...but didn't bother to mention this to me, yet again. Do I have to get her drunk every time I want important information? "Happy birthday, you have a half-sibling, who've you've actually been aware of for most of your life." Brilliant tact. But in any case, Dan-kun! We're half-siblings :) Hi~ I'm assuming you were as clueless as I was?

Not quite sure what to make of this, but I'm going to look on the bright side and hit my father so hard when I next see him that he's going to hit a wall :D That ought to cheer me up a bit.

-Faithfully yours, Seiichi
tennis_no_ko: (soft)
Thank you for the lovely day, Kura~ I hope you enjoyed it. I definitely did.

But I agree with Echizen about the pains of Valentine's Day. Too. Much. Chocolate. I can't eat all of this, not even with Minoru's help! I had four entire cardboard boxes filled with chocolate, for crying out loud! That's far more than last year's haul. I'm considering just going out with a huge basket and throwing them at people randomly. Or melting it down and making an abstract statue with it.


Tune in :)

Feb. 11th, 2014 10:28 pm
tennis_no_ko: (excitement)
The show I starred in is airing the season's first episode today on NHK~ Tune in if you're interested in some darker, crime stories. It's very well filmed, from what I saw before it hit the cutting-room floor.

Minoru's having another relapse. It's painful to watch. I'm growing more desensitised to it, and more efficient about helping her deal with it...but it's taking too long for my liking. And she's still so scared when it happens. I guess I should be happy that she isn't at that stage where she's stopped caring, like I reached when I was in hospital, because that means that she hasn't been suffering very long..but. I hate this. I hate it. I hate feeling useless....

I did my fair share of bad things as a kid, but what did she do to deserve this?

tennis_no_ko: (excitement)
Stage one of finding a bodyguard is underway. I have actually quite a few people applying, but I have no idea how to narrow them down. My two options currently are run them through something similar to speed dating. They have three minutes to tell me why I should hire them. Or, I have each of them bodyguard me for a day and stage something to happen that they have to react to. Whoever reacts the best gets the spot.

On the one hand, the second option is more useful to see their efficiency, but it's expensive. The first one's cheap, but if they just talk big, I could be fooled over.

Min-min has plenty of ideas, but all of them are useless, so I've resorted to ignoring her. She finds this all too amusing. I still feel like yakuza or something.
tennis_no_ko: (default)
It's funny, how these things happen. My mother called today wanting to spend the New Years with us.....around five days too late. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry or just hang up. I told her she'd missed the date and that Minoru was out with her friends anyway, grabbing some freedom days before the next term starts. I hope mother's been eating. But if she's forgotten what day it is, I doubt it. Scientists! Never know what to do with them! Still haven't heard from father. I might just march down to his office and shake him. Or chuck tennis balls at him.

But I've been managing to get some free time, since Minoru's out with friends and filming is on hiatus while everyone returns from holidays. Spent some time with my plants, and I painted some landscapes. I went out to Tokyo street centre and did some paintings of the urban scene and some temples. It was lovely, though I had to ignore the people there, since they wouldn't stand in one place for me!

I had some time to think to myself though, and I've been tossing around ideas for that little miracle of mine. Tell me Echizen, does your father ever enter competitions with magazines and newspapers to win things or go places? Or would you or someone close to you?

tennis_no_ko: (secrets)
And after this New Years celebration, I'm done and I can relax a bit more. Minoru's feeling a lot better and I think she's coming with me to the Nike New Years Party. I'm so relieved. Thank you so much for all of your help, Kura. I cannot express how amazing and patient you've been and thank you.

I'm visiting the temple on the First to wish for health, as I have done since I was 13 and will continue to do for as long as I remain paranoid. And health for Minoru, of course. My goal for this year is to do everything in my power to make Minoru more comfortable and accepting of her condition, until she can live with it by herself or an outside carer. I have no personal goals except my always long-term goal, which has been the ever elusive Golden Year. But I'll do it.

Then, after the visit, it's back to filming, which in hindsight, will actually be more relaxing than all the parties! I think we still have to film me killing a lot of people and blowing up parts of Tokyo. Which I will have an inordinate amount of fun with. If only makeup didn't take three hours every morning....


Dec. 20th, 2013 09:31 am
tennis_no_ko: (sweaty and determined)
And Minoru just had a mini panic fit, when she couldn't move her legs and almost fell down the stairs. I didn't need this now! I've got her back in bed and resting, though she's complaining of being bored. I threatened to read her a story like a kid, if she didn't cooperate a little, just because she always gets lulled to sleep by that.

Damnit. I really hope this is a temporary thing, like my smaller pains were. I have so many places to be and if this fit lasts, I may have to cancel some so I can stay and make sure she's looked after.

Mother finally responded to my email about Minoru, which I did send almost a month ago, with obviously distracted platitudes. I understand that my mother's science research is important, but she can afford to come back to Tokyo to come and see her daughter. It's not tough. I put my career on hold for Minoru, the least she can do is spare a couple of days to make a visit.

And Father isn't much better either. He still hasn't responded, and I don't know how preoccupied he can be. He's in PR, he has to check his emails! Maybe something happened to him and mother didn't inform me....? But no, even she can't be that bad. He's probably just too busy for me. And don't they even talk to each other anymore or something? Isn't this something that mother would tell Father or vice-versa?

This is why I hate dealing with them. They're so frustratingly occupied with their jobs and it makes me wonder why they even bothered to have kids in the first place. I only remember them being around regularly, both emotionally and physically until I was seven or eight, and far less than that for Minoru. Genichirou visited me in hospital more than they did!
tennis_no_ko: (lethargic)
mais la vie sépare ceux qui s'aiment
tout doucement
sans faire de bruit
et la mer efface sur le sable
les pas des amants désunis

Been listening to Yves Montand to get into the melancholic mood, while waiting for my character's death scene to get set up again (is that spoilers? Am I allowed to say that? I mean, on this show, the villain dies every season, so it's not a surprise really, but does it still count as a spoiler?).

The script isn't all that sad, but continuously dying at different angles is actually pretty emotional. I've died twenty times today already, and I'm set to die another fifty more XD It's pretty tiring. I wasn't expecting it at all. All I'm doing is collapsing a few times per take. Minoru tells me that I'm such a fail that I can't even die properly, because the director usually has to tell me to look less pained when I die. I find that somewhat amusing :D

tennis_no_ko: (smile)
First day of filming finished today. I forgot how exhausting it's supposed to be! It was faster today than it usually is, though, I'm reassured. I've heard that acting is 80% waiting and 20% doing, but today it was rather the opposite. But since we were filming really short scenes from my evil lair where I'm wearing the same thing, I guess they didn't have to do much scene changing.

My character has a snake as his pet and I spent half of my scenes with the snake trying to stop it from cutting off circulation to my arm! I think I might need to wear armour underneath my clothes to stop it from cutting in too much! On the other hand, Minoru got really excited by the reptile, so I could put up with some discomfort. She was laughing and all, when I was struggling between scenes. She's recovering her usual humour pretty fast.

The make-up people are pretty impressive though. They make me look quite different to myself, so I can actually pull off waist-long hair and not look strange. I give them props, that was cool. And my fears about co-actors being obnoxious were reassured. They're amusing to be around.

tennis_no_ko: (lethargic)
Back in Tokyo. And my plants are not dead. This is an improvement from last time. Minoru says it's still creepy that my house has more garden space than actual living space, but up until now, I didn't need the living space.

...I found the acting script though, Kura, and...there are a lot more lines than I expected. But it appears I am not the stereotypical villain! No huge expository monologue that make little to no sense! This is a step up for the contemporary villain. Seems people are learning from Marvel comics and Loki. But of course, the sister always finds something to poke fun at and it's at the fact that my hair will come down to mid-back, making me look more like a girl than ever. (It's good to know her mood isn't dampened by this whole thing.) going to sleep for a good long while, middle of the day or not.

tennis_no_ko: (crying)
I...I won't be participating in the first half of the tennis season this year. Maybe longer. I'm sorry Tezuka, it looks like our showdown may have to be delayed for a while yet. And I'm sorry to you Echizen, Kazuya, since I won't be able to have any official rematches with you two either.

I suppose I owe an explanation for this. It seems auto-immune disorders run in the family. My little sister Minoru has Relapsing Multiple Sclerosis. I knew there was something wrong with her! I just knew it! And it turns out she wasn't telling me this at all. I had to find out the hard way when she just collapsed in the middle of the street. I took her to the hospital and she was already a regular patient and everyone knew her by name just like they knew me. Imagine my surprise when they told me it was getting worse by the day and she is very likely to not be able to walk soon.

My parents can't look after her; they weren't even able to tell that there was something wrong with her in the first place. They were barely around when I was a kid and in the hospital, what's going to guarantee they'll be around for a quasi-adult? She needs someone more reliable to be there for a while, somebody who'll always be there. Or else you just go....utterly mad in a hospital when you can't do anything. You really do.

And it was a difficult decision to make...but I'm no longer the kid from ten years ago, who valued tennis above people. My family comes first. So, I'm sorry. I'll be back in Tokyo earlier than I expected. Minoru'll be living with me now. And I won't be leaving Japan for tournaments for quite a while. Not until she feels more comfortable about living with it. Since there's no cure for it.

I'm cutting out my ranting for those who don't want to read it. )

[ooc: Strikes deleted]
tennis_no_ko: (ecstatic)
I've reached World Number One in the ATP rankings~ A very sincere thank you from the bottom of my heart to everybody who supported me along the way! I appreciate every single gift, email or kind word in my way.

It was fun playing in the round-robin style tournament, since I got to play all of my opponents, not just a couple like you do with larger tournaments. I can't wait to do it again, especially with the British crowd. (Though I could do without the rainy weather ;A;)

I'll be home for another two whole months without going to another country! I get to relax for a bit. I think I'll stop in Tokyo for a week before going to Kyoto to check on Minoru. In that time, will you meet with me for a meal or something, Genichirou? My treat, since I got paid by Nike today as well :)

And Atobe, I owe you a movie-trip. Contact me about that. Oh, and I must be missing people I need to talk with. I'll contact everyone later, once I've attended the afterparty.

Screened to Shiraishi )

-With all my heart, Seiichi
tennis_no_ko: (worried)
Paris Masters starts tomorrow...and I really should be asleep, but my sister called me and I now I can't really sleep because I'm worried. More and more nowadays, her voice has been sounding weird and she never used to call me it's a lot more frequent.

Not that I'm complaining, I love actually getting a chance to talk to Minoru...but it's strange. Especially when she sounds sadder and sadder everyday. And she's about as open with things as a clam, so I can't pry them out of her over the phone.

...I just want everybody to be content with life, even if they aren't always euphoric. Is that too much to ask?
tennis_no_ko: (determined)
My sister was as charming as usual, when she came to visit today.

Me: So, we could do with better names for each other.
Minoru: Aren't the names our parents gave us enough?
Me: But it doesn't show that we're siblings.
Minoru: We don't need other names. You're Seiichi-nii-san.
Me: Are you sure? You could call me Sei and I could call you Min-Min.
Minoru: If you call me Min-Min, I will defenestrate you.

I think I'll be watching my back around windows for the next two days...

But I'm worried for her, too. Kyoto's a ways away and she seems to be having some problems there. She won't elaborate though, and my parents are as clueless as ever. They never knew anything about either of us as children, why did I think it would change?

I wonder if she's okay, though....I managed to con out that she thinks her apartment is lonely, but none of her classmates seem to take engineering as seriously as she would like them to, so she doesn't want to room with any of them.



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